Nothing Lasts Forever


Things seem to be going well for me of late. I'm doing well in school, I have enough money to live, I'm losing weight, I'm getting stronger, and I'm more physically fit than I've been in years.

And yet -

There is loss. I know it's inevitable and part of the process, but I think I'm allowed to acknowledge that it sucks. I'm not posting this in the hopes that any of it will change back, or to spark a revival of the old days - just to give these experiences their due. Expecially since no one talks about it around here...

Some of the tribe has moved away, both physically and emotionally, and I miss them all. A willing diaspora is good, I suppose; it speaks of dissemination and growth. It is, however, depressing for those who remain, and some impending departures and changes which are looming on the horizon make it more so. As I face three or four more semesters here in Laramie, I dread the quiet and the distance I see.

I am trying to see the lesson in all this, and I keep coming back to impermanence. Everything changes, everything passes away. There is nothing for it but to, as Mr. Bowie put it, "Turn and face the strain."

I'll do that, thanks. But at the moment my affections are spread all over the place, and I just feel old and a bit worn thin. This too shall pass, but not today. Not today.

5 comments:

Benjamin said...

hullo. :)

Mayren said...

*big huggles*

Indian Princess said...

This was a great post. I can't help but feel the same way sometimes. Everything changes, but knowing that doesn't always make it easier.

His Sinfulness said...

Hi Benny!

Thanks, Mayren.

Thanks for being on the same wavelength, Indian Princess.

:)

Anonymously Lost said...

Hey HSPB,

I am sorry to hear this I wish there was something that I could do, but I am here. This to shall most definitely pass. There maybe a lesson in everything maybe this is that even if people are far away they are always there even if it isn't physically. As for emotionally I don't know that there is anything that can be done about that, maybe it is just temporary maybe not I would just take it as appreciating the people that are there for you even more. Sorry if this doesn't help or I am just nuts but I wanted you to know that I have felt this many times probably not as intensely as this but everything will be ok I promise. Sorry it is so late I haven't been on blogger in quite sometime. Hugs from Coriander, I will see you later and give you an actual one. Talk to you later.

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